Helloooo. It's a Saturday morning and I have time to spare to jot down a few things for my blog. From a very dramatic fasting week, hovering to a very stressful Anatomy week, I'm now down to my slightly stressful (or might be stressful) Human Development week. I have a paper (which I am done with), an exam (not finished studying yet), and a report (not even started yet).
I am about to leave at around 8 am for a seminar on how to lead my group tackling the topic which is aligned with the "Signs of the Times" conference that happened last week. You know, I wonder if next sem I could still commit to all of these without fearing that I will fail any of my subjects. Eh ngayon pa nga lang eh, I think I've failed two exams (Take note though, that according to the feedback almost all of us failed--however I should not make that an excuse). Paano pa kaya next sem? Where I will be on full load? Will I still be able to commit to my ministry?
Many people don't understand the haggardness and the toxicity that entails a person who studies in UP, especially that of UP Manila. I can attest to that because I've been on the flagship campus before (UP Diliman) and I had a better, carefree, easygoing life there. Probably because I'm Bachelor of Arts student (Film major) which probably offers a more easy-go-lucky lifestyle. Now, I can't have that same lifestyle anymore. My campus (UP Manila) and most especially my course (Speech Pathology, which is an Allied Medical course) demands much of me. Most of the time during hell weeks I sleep late, become too anxious with exams, or skip other activities just so I can meet the demands of this course. Seeing that I am not as bright as my counterparts who passed SP without having to transfer, I have to get everything done by persistence and determination.
What's the point of saying this? When a person who is from UP says he or she is busy, they are really busy. I fear that it will be hard for me to juggle so many things at the same time and as it goes so is the quality of my performance in my work (ministry, acads, relationships with people, etc).
Anyway, why am I thinking about this? Should I just be focused on the present situation? Hahaha. Ang labo ko. Wala na kasi ako maisip eh. Ano pa ba i-bblog ko? I don't have a love life. That means less emo-ness, but less interesting things to blog about. Once again, I was brought back to the apathetic status when it comes to these things. I just want to be happy with my friends. I just want to focus on what would make or break me in the future. My acads. My faith. My present relationships with people and how I take care of them. That's all I want to think about. I don't want drama, I don't want distractions. I believe that the man who will pursue me will pursue me relentlessly regardless of how I feel, what I want, or what I do... until the time I am ready to make a commitment. Right friends? Right? Hahaha.
Okay. I have to get myself prepared. I'll catch up with ya next time. Buhbye. =)
-Gelineyyy
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